In my last post organization and schedule I did post that I am pretty good with scheduling for my girls but that’s just it right! Everything that is on my schedule is all about my girls. I don’t think that’s a bad thing but I know I definitely lost who I am. Right when I became a mom I went right into mom mode and never thought about me anymore. It was my new normal then when my mom passed and I had another daughter it only got worse. I love being a mom and anyone that knows me knows that’s I have dedicated my life to being a mom but, I kinda want to remember who I was before I had kids. I feel guilty even righting this but it’s how I honestly feel. Does anyone else feel this way ? I don’t even know where I would start or if there is even time to add in for me . It gives me anxiety just thinking about it. But on this journey this year I’m going to try to do something for myself every week even if it’s just a walk by myself I will literally take anything to just unwind and try to find me again! I definitely would love other moms advise going through something like this . Some people think it’s so easy but some people have a lot of family and friends I don’t my village is very small. I’m not trying to have anyone feel bad for me and I can handle things on my own, I always have but finding yourself in itself after having kids and losing your mother is a lot !!!! To those people in my little village that have been there for me through good and bad I thank you so much and am so grateful for you guys in my life . Now let’s start the chapter of finding me again ……….